Its nearly been 1 day without Pokemon showdown. I'm starting to go insane. It wasn't too bad at first if I'm being honest but then the symptoms started showing... I began having uncontrollable bursts of sobbing and I have been mostly in the corner and shivering. Pokemon Showdown was my life, my love, and it was taken away from me. For the past hour I've spent refreshing on Showdown hoping to myself that it would miraculously reopen and I could go back to my mindless joy again. Pokemon Showdown was absolutely everything to me, I've been sobbing uncontrollably while writing this and having spasms of uncontrollable hallucinations. I remember my first time on Pokemon Showdown. I could happily waste away everything I ever loved and owned on some national dex AG and random battles. I'm starting to hallucinate ogerpons every time I try to go to sleep now. I began seeing arceus staring down at me every time I tried to go outside and touch the forbidden green stuff. I just hear the voice of random battles room moderators scolding me for the 1000th time for suggesting yet another terrible set. I've been inside my bed while typing this and I have been thinking of just selling all my belongings and donating it to Pokemon Showdown just to get it back up. Wait, I see my beloved swanna outside my window. No, I must not give in, I just have to wait for the server to come back up. Waiting, waiting, please help me I need my beloved to come back online. Please bring back showdown, I need it...