You think I don't know you're playing around? At any point in the conversations we've had, did I sound serious? As for taking it so seriously, I have a right to, and I think I will. I appreciate your friendship, but I don't want to have to cut it due to you idolizing me more than I feel comfortable accepting - hell, I'm already accepting it, people who've spoken with me for a long time (much longer than you) have told me that I'm very down on myself, that I don't look at myself very highly. The borderline is set pretty high. It isn't going higher.