Hey guys, I come to you asking for help. Before I ask, let me just give you a little background information on my family and I concerning alcoholism.
A lot of my family are alcoholics on both of my parent's sides. The majority of deaths in my family are alcohol related. My uncle died at the age of 42 just walking down the street when he collapsed and his heart stopped. We didn't even know he had a problem until after his death when we discovered liquor hidden away. My grandfather died in his 50s because of alcoholism. Just about a week ago we heard the news that a relative of mine had too much to drink, went swimming and drowned. Another relative killed himself after he got very drunk.
It's not just my relatives, it's my immediate family as well. My dad was an alcoholic up until the year I was born, when he finally realized that it was destroying his life. He was able to stop but that wasn't until he was about 30 years old. My mom also can't handle liquor, but I don't think she can be considered an alcoholic.
And finally me, I have experienced a number of times where I get to a certain point of drinking where I cannot stop. I call it blackout mode, because I cannot for the life of me remember what happened but it never ends well. I realized yesterday that I simply cannot drink alcohol with any level of control. I went to a party on the Saturday that just passed and everything was going well until I had too much and lost control. When I get into blackout mode I am a horrible person to be around. I was insulting pretty much everyone there, and almost got into a fight. I was basically just being a huge dick to everyone, which is the complete opposite of how I am normally.
Also, while it is embarrassing to say I lose control of my bladder if I have too much so they hated me even more for wrecking their couch.
In the past my drinking has always ended up with the same consequences (not always pissing myself but the same asshole attitude). It's getting worse, I know if I say the wrong thing to someone when I'm drunk I could get my ass kicked or worse. I also know that I could get alcohol poisoning and die because I literally don't stop until I've passed out. I thought it was hard liquor so I switched to beer which ended up being no different for me. I simply can't have alcohol.
So now for my question. In this day and age where alcohol is a staple in any person's college life, where it appears at every party or social gathering, how can I seek help and understanding from others for my condition? How can I quit knowing that alcohol is pretty much everywhere? I know that alcohol will kill me unless I do something to stop it, but I am under a lot of stress and sometimes a drink sounds really good.
So if you guys could give me advice then I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks for reading.
A lot of my family are alcoholics on both of my parent's sides. The majority of deaths in my family are alcohol related. My uncle died at the age of 42 just walking down the street when he collapsed and his heart stopped. We didn't even know he had a problem until after his death when we discovered liquor hidden away. My grandfather died in his 50s because of alcoholism. Just about a week ago we heard the news that a relative of mine had too much to drink, went swimming and drowned. Another relative killed himself after he got very drunk.
It's not just my relatives, it's my immediate family as well. My dad was an alcoholic up until the year I was born, when he finally realized that it was destroying his life. He was able to stop but that wasn't until he was about 30 years old. My mom also can't handle liquor, but I don't think she can be considered an alcoholic.
And finally me, I have experienced a number of times where I get to a certain point of drinking where I cannot stop. I call it blackout mode, because I cannot for the life of me remember what happened but it never ends well. I realized yesterday that I simply cannot drink alcohol with any level of control. I went to a party on the Saturday that just passed and everything was going well until I had too much and lost control. When I get into blackout mode I am a horrible person to be around. I was insulting pretty much everyone there, and almost got into a fight. I was basically just being a huge dick to everyone, which is the complete opposite of how I am normally.
Also, while it is embarrassing to say I lose control of my bladder if I have too much so they hated me even more for wrecking their couch.
In the past my drinking has always ended up with the same consequences (not always pissing myself but the same asshole attitude). It's getting worse, I know if I say the wrong thing to someone when I'm drunk I could get my ass kicked or worse. I also know that I could get alcohol poisoning and die because I literally don't stop until I've passed out. I thought it was hard liquor so I switched to beer which ended up being no different for me. I simply can't have alcohol.
So now for my question. In this day and age where alcohol is a staple in any person's college life, where it appears at every party or social gathering, how can I seek help and understanding from others for my condition? How can I quit knowing that alcohol is pretty much everywhere? I know that alcohol will kill me unless I do something to stop it, but I am under a lot of stress and sometimes a drink sounds really good.
So if you guys could give me advice then I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks for reading.